I feel like I'm failing at everything

I feel like I'm drowning.  My house is a mess.  I look around and don't even know where to start.  (Full disclosure - I'm in the middle of a consignment sale and I have a few other mom's stuff to list so my house is jam packed!  One week left!)  My fridge needs cleaned out, my laundry is piled high, the dust is outrageous, the dishwasher needs emptied, laundry needs put away, my tub needs scrubbed, and the list goes on and on, and on and on!

I keep trying to find ways to bring in an extra few dollars.  But nothing works.  Tried selling stuff at camp this weekend.  Made $3 measly dollars.  I try promoting stuff online but I don't have enough of a following.  I try to promote mental health products but nobody bites.  And I find myself feeling worthless because I'm trying all these different things but nothing is helping my family.

My depression is out of control.  I often think my family would be better off without me.  I find myself often thinking about death and what everybody's life would be like without me.  I often times genuinely have myself convinced that the world would be better off without me.  But you see, I'm fortunate.  I have my incredible husband who can read me like a book and always knows exactly when to tell me how much he loves me and needs me.  If you don't have that, I'm sorry.  But I'm here to tell you that THIS WORLD NEEDS YOU.  The world is a better place because you are in it.  You bring something to this world that not a single other person does.  And we can't afford to lose it.  Please stay with us.  Please reach out for help.  You are so incredibly loved.

KaitleeKaresForYOU!

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